Random picture – October 21, 2021

Hey, everyone! I hope everyone’s doing well! Since I’ve been a bit busy with preparations for the upcoming trip, thought I’d do another quick image post!

This one is not too close to my style of characters (I love playing mostly human/humanoid ones), but the art style is really cool, and it can serve as inspiration for someone out there!

I hope you enjoy it! I have several more I’ll be posting in the future, but if there’s something special you’d like to see, let me know and I’ll add it to my list!

Catch you later!

Life Update – October 18, 2021

Hello, everyone! How are you all doing? Well, I hope!

I’m… definitely doing better than I was a while ago. And as I had promised, I’m back with a short life update, since I don’t really have much more to write about right now!

1- I’m still recovering from losing my relationship with my ex. We had been together in some capacity (as friends, then lovers, then friends again, then lovers again, then… nothing) since 2013. It’s a long time to just… stop. What happened, now that I can talk about it without sobbing, was that she had a situation that caused brain damage and erased all of her memories from ten years past. We went from talking about marriage to her not even knowing who I am. It’s still painful as hell, but that’s what happened, and I lied when I said I wasn’t going to cry.

2- Since it seems like this is ex week, another ex (who kindly got someone else pregnant while we were dating) decided to pop back into my email and ask if I still live in the same place (I don’t, thank heavens). I answered him because I’m too curious for my own good. I guess we’ll see what happens.

3- Finally got to take a week off work, so I’ll be out of state next week. We’re spending three full days in a city I’ve never been to before, so I’m excited for that. I’ll report back once I’m back home and rested.

4- Still working on losing some weight (I’ve dropped 48-ish pounds already, still got around 37 to go) and trying to remember it’s worth it. I confess I freaked out a bit (a lot) when I saw the loose skin on some parts of my body, but it seems like it can be fixed or improved, so we’ll see about that. Gotta keep working on reaching that healthy weight.

5- My hair is almost down to my shoulders again, and I’m torn between growing it out a little or chopping it all off again because it’s so damn hot right now here in Brazil. I guess I’ll have to give it some thought.

Well, I guess that’s it for today. Nothing spectacular or very interesting, but there you all have it, the promised text post. I might still drop another one (text or image) before my trip!

See you when I see you!

Random picture – October 15, 2021

Hello, everyone! Just a really quick image post so I don’t leave the blog abandoned for too long! It’s a pretty cool one, and it sort of serves as writing inspo, doesn’t it?

I’ll have an actual written post very soon, I promise! Until then, take care and behave!

See you all soon!

Where have I been?

Hey, everyone, how are you all? Doing well, I hope! I’m… alive.

I know I haven’t been posting nearly as well as I should, but I’m here. Things have been happening, and I haven’t been able to.

I’ll try to keep this short and also talk a little about how I plan on moving forward.

On the normal side of things, I’ve been working a lot – the company I work for is going through a lot of changes, and we’re all having to learn how to operate new systems, how to give support to new products, all that fun stuff. I’ve been trying to get another blog in Portuguese off the ground as well, though that project has been on hold for a while.

My mental health has been shaky lately, and I’ve been handling some physical health stuff as well – nothing serious, but it requires time and lifestyle changes.

I’m also freshly single in a way I had never expected to happen, and I’m sad, angry and confused, and it’s nobody’s fault, which only makes it worse. I’m not sure I should explain it, as it’s someone else’s private information, but…it was harsh and traumatic. I’m still coming to terms with it.

As for how I plan on moving forward… There’s so much I want to do about the blog. Maybe post some writing prompts, talk about collaborative writing or post a nice picture every now and then. I’m not sure how much energy I’ll have for all of that, but I’ll do my best. I’ve been dropping the ball on reading everyone’s blogs as well, and I plan on working on that too. I’ll just need a little time and patience.

I think that’s all I have to say for today. I should be back soon!

August 27, 2021 Theme: A silly fear you have

Hey there, everyone! How are you all doing? Well, I hope!

I’m here today with another theme for this week! I had taken a look at my theme list, but all of them looked too serious, and I just don’t feel like doing serious this week, so I’ll just do a little question:

What is a silly fear that you have? Something that has never happened to you and probably never will?

Mine is the idea that my bed will collapse while I’m asleep. Why? Who knows. It’s a pretty sturdy bed, it’s not wonky or anything, and no bed of mine has ever collapsed – with or without me. But it’s one of those little things I find to worry about when I can’t fall asleep.

What about you? What’s your silly fear? Share it with me, I promise I won’t laugh!

See you on the next!

August 20, 2021 Theme: The Narcissist’s Prayer

Hey there, everyone! How are you all doing? Well, I hope!

I’m back today with another theme for this week! I was going to talk about narcissistic mothers, from my own experience, but I ended up thinking of something more general and more curious – the narcissist’s prayer. I’ll also add a few very short comments to every line.

I couldn’t find an author for it, but here it goes (I’ll add one if I ever find the name), with some short notes on the side. I found it on this site. (https://www.thelifedoctor.org/the-narcissist-s-prayer)

That didn’t happen. (Denial/Gaslighting/Rewriting reality)
And if it did, it wasn’t that bad. (Minimizing the events)
And if it was, that’s not a big deal. (Minimizing the effects of said events)
And if it is, that’s not my fault. (Refusing to take responsibility for their actions)
And if it was, I didn’t mean it. (Sort of taking ownership, but still dodging responsibility)
And if I did, you deserved it. (Blame shifting/Blaming the victim)

Have you ever had someone try that one on you? Or dealt with a narcissist in any other way? I’d love to hear about your experience in the comments, as well as any ideas for future themes you have!

Thank you for dropping by, and I’ll see you on the next post!

August 13, 2021 Theme: TERFs

Hey there, everyone! How are you all doing? Well, I hope!

After some thinking, I’ve decided to cut the personal updates and only touch on them when something important happens – my life is hardly that exciting, after all -, and stick to the weekly themes.

Today’s themes is TERFs. For those not in the know, that stands for Trans Exclusionary Radical Feminists. The tl;dr is: they defend that trans women are men. Must I say I have no love at all for them?

Instead of sharing my opinion, though (that might involve some expletives), I’d like to ask yours. Whether you agree with them or disagree, please keep your comment constructive and free of slurs. Thank you.

If you have an idea for a future theme (and I plan on expanding upon them much more than I did this one) feel free to share it in the comments! I’ll be happy to add it to my list!

See you on the next!

Life update – August 6th, 2021

Hello, my pretties! How are you all? Doing well, I hope! I’m still alive and kicking, even though I haven’t been posting nearly as much as I’d like. I had, as you know, planned on posting once a week, but then things got in the way, blah blah blah. You know. Same old stuff. I really need to stop making promises.

On the life side: finally got my first COVID shot this Monday. My arm was sore for even less time than the flu shot, and I had no reactions whatsoever. Took the Pfizer shot, and should take the second one in October – our vaccination schedule is a bit delayed, still. Nothing to do other than wait. Other than that… I guess that’s it. Despite having been busy and running around like a headless chicken, nothing really new and exciting has happened. Oh, wait. Yes, something did happen. Just last weekend, my dad decided to fix the water filter without closing the water register. Guess who took the brunt of the water jets when the pipe slipped off the wall and had to run to drag the fridge away to close the register while soaking wet and yelling at dad to put his hand over the wall? Yours truly, of course. My life sometimes resembles a comedy sketch. No animals were harmed during the production. Unless I count as an animal. Hmmm…

The theme today: Writer’s block. God knows I’ve looked into its face every day for a while already. With doing my work, learning stuff about the new work we’re going to start doing and helping everyone else from other departments do their work, plus spending time with family, plus just being tired… the well seems to be dry. I’ve been working on a story bit by bit by bit – almost sentence by sentence. It’s going to take a long time, but I feel that I can’t not write, otherwise the block may become permanent. If anyone has any tips to offer, I’d be extremely grateful! Any resources, links, anything you do to combat it… anything helps, really! Help a girl out! :)

I guess that’s it for today! I’ll try not to let too long go by before coming back here! Have a nice day and see you on the next post! If you have any suggestions for future themes, I’d love to hear them!

Life update – 16-07-2021

Hello, my pretties! How are you all? Doing well, I hope! I’m still alive and kicking, even though I haven’t been posting nearly as much as I’d like. To combat that, I’m putting in the effort to post a life update every Friday or Saturday, and touch on some random theme while I’m at it, since who wants to just hear me talk about my boring life? :) I must share my boring opinion as well!

On the life side: managed to get my flu shot (it’s winter here) yesterday. No reactions, except for a really sore arm, so I’ve got that going for me. Covid vaccines here in my city are still 42 years old and up, so it’s going to take a while until I can get it. I have to wait two weeks in between vaccines anyway, so nothing left to do. Still feeling really burned out with work and everything, and needing to get a vacation – or staycation – some time soon. Maybe that’ll get the creative juices flowing again, or so one would hope.

The theme today: the sacralization of the act of giving birth. Notice that I’m not talking about motherhood, which is a very involved and life-long process of raising a child and still providing emotional support and friendship as the child morphs into an adult. I’m talking about simply having given birth to a child they may or may not be raising and acting as though that makes such person a special being worthy of all reverence. In my opinion, excuse my French, this is a steaming pile of bullshit. The situation that made me think of this was a thread on Reddit (which I won’t link here) where a lady who had given up her biological son for adoption was proclaiming her right to disregard the adoptive parents’ request that she did not take pictures of the child and post them on social media during the visits they allowed her to have with the boy. Her answer as to why she felt that she had this right was “I am his mother”. And the overwhelming answer was “no, you are not. The person who adopted him, is raising him, living with him and paying for his every expense is his mother”. I tend to agree with that. I’m not going to demonize people who give up their biological child for adoption. I believe that, in a place where abortions are illegal or very hard to get (such as my country) or if the person has moral objections to abortions but feels that she can’t raise the child, adopting the child out to someone who can is a very responsible decision. But… you are no longer the mother after the child is adopted.

I would love to hear your opinions on the matter.

Have a nice day and see you on the next post!

Random picture for the day – July 09, 2021

Hello, everyone! I should write a longer post at some point, but today was a long day and I’m dead tired, so I’ll just share a picture and a little bit of context. Today is a holiday for me, so the parents and I took a drive out of town for some fresh air and a change of scenery. We stopped at a town called Praia do Forte (Fort Beach), and I decided to snap a picture of the fishing boats. I hope you like it! I’ve been working on getting a blog in Portuguese off the ground (again), so if you notice I’ve been posting just a little less, that’s why! I’ll do my best to keep up with both blogs!

See you on the next!